Journal MsWillow's Journal: Vikki writing for Jean 5

This last pulse went very easy. Thanks to B-12 and lots of charcoal I hardly noticed it. Two days after it was over, suddenly all hell broke loose. I have now lost every ability that I had regained since last August. Neither leg works, and my left hand is now again useless.

In addition, I am seriously suicidal, both hips ache fiercely, both shoulders ache, and most of my muscles ache and / or hurt. I think this is all a result of killing CPn in zombie cells. Once the CPn is gone the cells finally undergo a very long delayed apoptosisi.

Any idea how long it will take to get back these abilities? It's funny, I can't really claim to be suicidal as I have no ability to commit suicide, and if I had that nmuch ability again, I wouldn't be suicidal. Saint John's Wort is helping so that, at least, is good news.

Any clues on when I might begin to get this back? Please?

(For Jeannette by Vikki).