At the time, we were using SCO Unix(and a bit of Xenix), and paying a fortune for licensing. Creating a 40mb partition just for this, gave it a go and was blown away with what it could do, heck, it even
Anyway, setting up the machine, powering on, and even on my low end desktop, it felt snappier than the Compaq server we were using. "ok, ok, lets see if it'll run our software." one tar(cpio?) to a floppy, and extracting on my machine, ran Make, and... everything worked. Boss "and how much is this?" "free, zero cost" "hmm, it can't be any good, can it? there's a trick to it" "if there is, I've no idea what it is". Now, in the end, they decided to stick with what they had, to be fair, the SCO Unix stuff
A year, maybe 2 later, running support at the local college in a room with 100+ win3 machines, turning on, they'd immediately copy an image local, boot from that, and it worked great, even if it was heavily limited on what it could do. But that one machine, right near the entrance, behind the pillar so was THE only machine in the entire room the helpdesk couldn't see the screen of, happened to get a dual boot system. Mash... ALT? down as it booted up, et voila, booted into Slackware. And I got so much work done on that machine. As the windows partitions would be cleared/wiped routinely, that machine got me through a 2 year course, having a full dev environment running so I could get work done.
Dabbled with a few (lots) different versions of Linux, but Slakware just 'felt right', it had everything in the right place (same as SCO unix that I was familiar with).
Glad it's still getting updated.
And as said, no-way would MS have given away Windows Mobile to people, heck, they'd have insisted on WinMobile+WinMobileOffice most likely.
Is that something that'd be viable where you are?
But... I hear ya. Pretty much in the same situation age wise, and have never had problems instantly recalling the sort of knowledge no-one else wanted to learn in the first place, 30 years later "ooo! dos 4.something and no-one knows why it's suddenly stopped working, but is essential to get the big machine thing next to it working? let me rummage around in my "BOX OF STUFF THAT WILL BECOME USEFUL ONE DAY" and see if... yes! a (maybe) working HD, let me copy stuff across, get it working, edit the config.sys, the autoexec.bat and... we're up and running again, no, wait, hmm, let me recall the serial port settings, hang on, think it's the cable, let me run up a new one, set it up, and... done. suck it youngsters". Really, soon as the keyboard's in front of me, it's near muscle memory to get old arcane command line switches recalled, to pop over to some SCO boxen that needs something sorted because the tape backup's not working for some reason etc.. Phone call out of the blue "do you by any chance remember the default password on that machine? the guy running it died and we can't figure out what it was, and we know you set it up, and maybe he never changed it" "ok, try..." "no" "in that case... wait, is this the one where the guy renamed admin to be adminlord?" "I don't know..." "ok, make the username 'adminlord' and the password 'BAABAAF1BF1BF00F00 (zeros, not 'ohs')" "IT WORKED! THANK YOU".
Then I got cancer last year, and the chemo... knocked me out, physically and mentally. The instant memory recall to anything disappeared, and
This really, really scared me, that so much of everything I do is remembering that I'd written the code to do that thing 15 years ago, or I read a magazine about that thing 5 years ago, the article was after the ad with the dell laptop, had a spelling mistake in the first sentence, but was a good article and I could quote the last paragraph.
But that wasn't working anymore. Then, back at work, tech support problems, code to fix. Was taking me a day wading through code I'd written 3 months ago to figure out what was going on, was incredibly slow work (and was still needing multiple naps a day as the chemo had really weakened me). Then, my boss sold a mockup of a prototype of a smoke and mirrors product to a client and I had to suddenly hit the ground running.
Would have been hard in my early 20's to get upto speed, the way I was feeling, I was fumbling around just getting the development tools knocked into shape where I could do anything, let alone code.
but, bit by bit, things started coming back, the numbness in my fingertips started to fade over a few weeks enough to get back to usual typing speed/accuracy. The feeling of "oh, I've written something like this before somewhere" was there, it just took a bit longer to hunt through old code to find it, whereas in the past it'd have been instantaneous to navigate down to the source code to copy/paste it as needed.
So, late 40's, I've just been dropped in the deep end with Android/Cloud development, and... I got there in the end. It was just harder work than before. But perhaps at 20, picking it up easier, I'd not have written code that'd work as well? With decades of experience, I know the pitfalls to avoid, the likely user requests later to allow me to leave hooks in for later when they ask for it, and the main thing that got me feeling better/more positive... 2 week holiday.
Spoke to boss, stood up and said "I appreciate the time I've had for the ops/chemo and all that, but I've not
I see many friends in the industry, also getting a bit long in the tooth, and seems to be a common thing, the "am I getting too old for this? why are users still this stupid" rants. They've been under pressure, it's killing them, they need time off, to decompress.
take that time, figure things out, speak to family, speak to management, take it from there. If you can't do it anymore, get out as fast as possible without burning bridges, train others behind you, go for a beer with a decent boss and ask advice.
Good luck
Men of lofty genius when they are doing the least work are most active. -- Leonardo da Vinci